The new me that hadn't settled in Transcendence finally emerged in the Akarmi deh initiation😍This initiation was the culmination of what i had been experiencing since the start of 2015. My old self completely took a back seat and Niranjana, the akarmi entirely took birth with the Akarmi deh initiation. This was a colossal gift from Sree Maa Shri Ji where effortlessly the akarmi came forward. Had an inner knowingness that what required consistent awareness and effort earlier was now going to be the way of life.
After the initiation, i felt revived and fully ready to accept the new name that i had given consent for before the Retreat. Sree Maa had written down all the names on the board, and we all tried guessing our own names. i related with quite a few surprisingly and loved my new name chosen by Sree Maa. Niranjana means pure and untainted, without any falsehood🙏 All the names were attributes of the non-doer. Every time we took each others' akarmi names, we were reminding ourselves of the unchanging attributes of the akarmi. For instance, Archita means one who has surrendered to God. Every time i called her by that name, i was reminding myself that the akarmi is always surrendered to God. Every time i called Mala, it reminded that all akarmis are connected with one another with the common string Sree Maa Shri Ji and together we all resembled a beautiful garland spreading the fragrance of love, the QVSWPP. How absolutely beautiful!💖 atyant AbhAr Sree Maa Shri Ji 🙏
Embodying the akarta - akarmi was ultimate for me. i felt i had reached the pinnacle of what would have taken me aeons to achieve. Sree Maa Shri Ji, being the ultimate embodiment of love and grace, showered yet another blessing of Samdarshi, the cherry on the cake.
Samdarshi loosely means 'like God' With this initiation, we were given the blessing to not look at the Absolute from the outside but carry IT within us. This was SreeMaaShriJi honouring us. Sree Maa introduced the concept of Nar and Narayan, where Nar carries an aspect of Narayan. In practical life, with this beautiful initiation, none of us would receive any mirrors from outside, but Sree Maa Shri Ji and fellow FiTs would be our only mirrors. No more lessons would be taught by anyone. Sree Maa Shri Ji would teach the last few remaining lessons of the jivatma (incarnational soul) gently and with love🙏🙏🙏 atyant AbhAr Sree Maa Shri Ji for such ultimate Grace.
As i look back and reflect, one of my biggest mistakes and contribution towards the failure of FiT programme, enabling the narcissists and victimising Sree Maa Shri Ji was the faulty application and understanding of the Samdarshi initiation. Will write about my reflections on this in detail soon.
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Tuesday, 6 March 2018
Friday, 2 March 2018
May 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat Part 3 - Master FiT
A lot of open discussions, trials and practice rounds were run to arrive at the best format that could be used to take 5D++ AwaKeNiN TrAnsFOrMaTiON (0 to 7) workshop to many. None of us felt confident to host the 2 days format like Sree Maa Shri Ji. Sree Maa gave us the option to come up with our own formats too but that was collectively rejected by everyone as was against Oneness that we all were working towards and if we came up with our own formats, where was Kosmic Fusion? We all knew that the Session 0 could only be done by Sree Maa Shri Ji which meant that the workshop always would require Sree Maa Shri Ji to be present for Session 0 at least.
Cutting a long story short, it was collectively decided to set up the stage in such a way where as FiTs, we only held space, always staying in non-action and allowing the process to unfold for the participants. To make it easier for everyone, that is, for the FiTs to always remember that it is only Sree Maa Shri Ji who can remove 3D/4D dense obsolete grids and are the bringers of this superb upgrade to souls who are ready and also to introduce Sree Maa Shri Ji to new-comers who had no clue how this advanced work is being offered and by who it is being done, it was collectively decided to keep Sree Maa Shri Ji's photo in the room and a 2 to 3 hours super-sonic short-cut format was decided upon to reach many more people 🙏
Potential questions that could be asked by the participants were discussed and the best answers were collated to maintain consistency in all regions🙏 An "after-care email" was to be sent to all new 5D++ Pulsars after the 5D++ AwaKeNiN TrAnsFOrMaTiON workshop that gave them clear information about how to contact Sree Maa Shri Ji, how to tune-in with QVSWPP, how to easily integrate the process etc. and a 'tune-up call' to be held after a minimum of 21 days with Sree Maa Shri Ji where all new 5D++ Pulsars would be able to meet Sree Maa Shri Ji and ask questions🙏
Sree Maa Shri Ji have given so much space and trust, listened to what we had to say, kept the myriad cadre of FiTs and their weaknesses and strengths in mind, what the souls of the new participants would need, to help us strengthen and never deviate from the core principle of being the Akarta -Akarmi, non-doer, this new format was approved by Sree Maa Shri Ji to take the vision and mission of Kosmic Fusion forward🙏💫
This was an excellent platform for all FiTs to develop their own faith and trust in Sree Maa Shri Ji that Sree Maa Shri Ji would shower the same Grace on new participants just in a span of 2 hours when each of the FiTs had had a different process ranging from days to months🙏💞
atyant AbhAr Sree Maa Shri Ji for trusting me and giving me a superb platform to volunteer in non-action 🙇
Cutting a long story short, it was collectively decided to set up the stage in such a way where as FiTs, we only held space, always staying in non-action and allowing the process to unfold for the participants. To make it easier for everyone, that is, for the FiTs to always remember that it is only Sree Maa Shri Ji who can remove 3D/4D dense obsolete grids and are the bringers of this superb upgrade to souls who are ready and also to introduce Sree Maa Shri Ji to new-comers who had no clue how this advanced work is being offered and by who it is being done, it was collectively decided to keep Sree Maa Shri Ji's photo in the room and a 2 to 3 hours super-sonic short-cut format was decided upon to reach many more people 🙏
Potential questions that could be asked by the participants were discussed and the best answers were collated to maintain consistency in all regions🙏 An "after-care email" was to be sent to all new 5D++ Pulsars after the 5D++ AwaKeNiN TrAnsFOrMaTiON workshop that gave them clear information about how to contact Sree Maa Shri Ji, how to tune-in with QVSWPP, how to easily integrate the process etc. and a 'tune-up call' to be held after a minimum of 21 days with Sree Maa Shri Ji where all new 5D++ Pulsars would be able to meet Sree Maa Shri Ji and ask questions🙏
Sree Maa Shri Ji have given so much space and trust, listened to what we had to say, kept the myriad cadre of FiTs and their weaknesses and strengths in mind, what the souls of the new participants would need, to help us strengthen and never deviate from the core principle of being the Akarta -Akarmi, non-doer, this new format was approved by Sree Maa Shri Ji to take the vision and mission of Kosmic Fusion forward🙏💫
This was an excellent platform for all FiTs to develop their own faith and trust in Sree Maa Shri Ji that Sree Maa Shri Ji would shower the same Grace on new participants just in a span of 2 hours when each of the FiTs had had a different process ranging from days to months🙏💞
atyant AbhAr Sree Maa Shri Ji for trusting me and giving me a superb platform to volunteer in non-action 🙇
Thursday, 1 March 2018
May 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat Part 3 - Master FiT
It took me a while to fully integrate and absorb the pulse and shift that the Silent Guru Mantra initiation graciously given by Sree Maa Shri Ji brought. i viewed Sree Maa Shri Ji very differently from this day on. The casualness, 'the cool dude' attitude that i sometimes kept receded and a different kind of respect, adoration and gratitude dawned, a bond between a Guru and a student where both mutually accept one another. i had fully accepted SreeMaaShri Ji for the remarkable brilliance and utmost compassion they tried to conceal under selflessness and humility and Sree Maa Shri Ji accepted me despite the apparent flaws of the doer. Sree Maa Shri Ji's brilliance and compassion outshined and resonated so soundly that the akarta - akarmi in me felt ready to surrender in Sree Maa Shri Ji's lotus-feet and the doer for a change, wasn't coming in the way. Interesting!
The next 4 days of the Retreat was only for the FiTs which was a continuation of the Transcendence. There were 19 of us. Sree Maa Shri Ji started the retreat with an interactive discourse about "why vegetarianism?" It was layered with sense of humour. Remember all of us bursting into peals of laughter when Sree Maa said that if anyone forces you to have meat, say that 'i will only eat it only if you are ready to serve yourself on the plate' 😂
i have been a vegetarian all my life and am aware that at least 4 generations before me have been Jains and strict vegetarians. i have been ridiculed a number of times, one such statement being 'kya bakriyon ki tarah ghaans phoos khati hai! (what grass you eat like goats)' and quite frankly, the ridiculing has come mostly from my own countrymen and utter disbelief from Westerners who hail from a meat-eating culture and have had no exposure to other cultures. Thankfully, the internet has made the world smaller and the awareness towards vegetarianism is on the rise worldwide due to health concerns, spirituality, no cruelty to animals etc. Sree Maa's sense of humour weaved with Absolute Truth was a breath of fresh air💕
As i mentioned earlier, the FiT training has always been about Manan and Chintan. One such session was "to tune-in with QVSWPP, scan and assess where you are with the FiT programme and make a list of your own strengths and weaknesses" This was an exercise i wasn't able to complete properly as the old me had pretty much dissolved and the new me after transcendence hadn't settled fully. i still experienced myself in the transition phase and didn't do the exercise. i wasn't told off for it by Sree Maa or Shri Ji but was fully respected with time and space to integrate the shift🙏
The next 4 days of the Retreat was only for the FiTs which was a continuation of the Transcendence. There were 19 of us. Sree Maa Shri Ji started the retreat with an interactive discourse about "why vegetarianism?" It was layered with sense of humour. Remember all of us bursting into peals of laughter when Sree Maa said that if anyone forces you to have meat, say that 'i will only eat it only if you are ready to serve yourself on the plate' 😂
i have been a vegetarian all my life and am aware that at least 4 generations before me have been Jains and strict vegetarians. i have been ridiculed a number of times, one such statement being 'kya bakriyon ki tarah ghaans phoos khati hai! (what grass you eat like goats)' and quite frankly, the ridiculing has come mostly from my own countrymen and utter disbelief from Westerners who hail from a meat-eating culture and have had no exposure to other cultures. Thankfully, the internet has made the world smaller and the awareness towards vegetarianism is on the rise worldwide due to health concerns, spirituality, no cruelty to animals etc. Sree Maa's sense of humour weaved with Absolute Truth was a breath of fresh air💕
As i mentioned earlier, the FiT training has always been about Manan and Chintan. One such session was "to tune-in with QVSWPP, scan and assess where you are with the FiT programme and make a list of your own strengths and weaknesses" This was an exercise i wasn't able to complete properly as the old me had pretty much dissolved and the new me after transcendence hadn't settled fully. i still experienced myself in the transition phase and didn't do the exercise. i wasn't told off for it by Sree Maa or Shri Ji but was fully respected with time and space to integrate the shift🙏
Monday, 26 February 2018
May 2015 Kawai Pura Retreat Part 2 - Transcendence
There were many discourses given as always and Sree Maa Shri Ji encouraged everyone to bring their questions to transcend out of the layers of avidya (lack of knowledge) and agnyan (ignorance).
Sree Maa Shri Ji explained to us about the Guru Mantra and then gave us time to think if we wanted to be initiated into it. As Dakshina, each one of us gave a bad habit that we wanted to get rid off. Guru Mantra was the doorway to be initiated into being a Sanatana Dharmi, the one who lives righteously like an akarta - akarmi (non-doer). All this was explained very clearly.
i already had 3 mantras that i was using to meditate on, two had been given when i was initiated into TM and the third one for Sahaj Samadhi meditation and all 3 had been substantial in my spiritual growth. i didn't know what to do with them and voiced it to Sree Maa Shri Ji. It took 1 minute for Sree Maa to clear away the antar-dwand (inner conflict) i was experiencing based on one of the discourses Sree Maa had given previously and it made sense that all mantras initiated from AUM. i chose to receive the initiation.
During the initiation, the conflict that i had experienced earlier came and stood right in front of me. My own conscience shouted at me for being selfish and betraying my first Guru Sri Sri Ravi Shankar who had helped me unconditionally in my time of need. He never forced his teachings and courses on me, i had gone and done them, benefitted from them and chose him as my Guru, taken respite at his Ashram and now suddenly as i found something more advanced and better, i was disowning him. i felt really bad that i was letting him go after selfishly using him, his teachings and his techniques until i wanted to. The tap of tears opened again and i just couldn't move forward to receive the soundless sound mantra. At that moment, i called out to him and he showed up. The closure that he gave me has been instrumental in keeping my faith in the Guru principle and to move forward in truly accepting Sree Maa Shri Ji as my Guru. i still find it very overwhelming to express this part and am taking the liberty to share the audio recording where i shared my experience. Humbly requesting all listeners to listen to it from the recesses of your soul and not the judgement of the ego as i was reeling under very intense emotions and a phase of shift and transformation when i did the sharing_/\_ Gratitude in advance for your understanding and empathy_/\_
Sree Maa Shri Ji explained to us about the Guru Mantra and then gave us time to think if we wanted to be initiated into it. As Dakshina, each one of us gave a bad habit that we wanted to get rid off. Guru Mantra was the doorway to be initiated into being a Sanatana Dharmi, the one who lives righteously like an akarta - akarmi (non-doer). All this was explained very clearly.
i already had 3 mantras that i was using to meditate on, two had been given when i was initiated into TM and the third one for Sahaj Samadhi meditation and all 3 had been substantial in my spiritual growth. i didn't know what to do with them and voiced it to Sree Maa Shri Ji. It took 1 minute for Sree Maa to clear away the antar-dwand (inner conflict) i was experiencing based on one of the discourses Sree Maa had given previously and it made sense that all mantras initiated from AUM. i chose to receive the initiation.
During the initiation, the conflict that i had experienced earlier came and stood right in front of me. My own conscience shouted at me for being selfish and betraying my first Guru Sri Sri Ravi Shankar who had helped me unconditionally in my time of need. He never forced his teachings and courses on me, i had gone and done them, benefitted from them and chose him as my Guru, taken respite at his Ashram and now suddenly as i found something more advanced and better, i was disowning him. i felt really bad that i was letting him go after selfishly using him, his teachings and his techniques until i wanted to. The tap of tears opened again and i just couldn't move forward to receive the soundless sound mantra. At that moment, i called out to him and he showed up. The closure that he gave me has been instrumental in keeping my faith in the Guru principle and to move forward in truly accepting Sree Maa Shri Ji as my Guru. i still find it very overwhelming to express this part and am taking the liberty to share the audio recording where i shared my experience. Humbly requesting all listeners to listen to it from the recesses of your soul and not the judgement of the ego as i was reeling under very intense emotions and a phase of shift and transformation when i did the sharing_/\_ Gratitude in advance for your understanding and empathy_/\_
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