Surrender is the key!

i had already decided not to practice hypnotherapy anymore and unnecessarily activate chitt and manas, my own or of clients but the nature (swabhav) of my doer has always been to keep learning new things. i had participated in a few family constellations workshops in 2013/14, had found them very interesting which gave a different dimension to healing and so decided to study the modality when i came to know in June 2015 that a Family Constellations training workshop (3 levels spread over a couple of months) was being organised in Mumbai. The first module was within 25 days. i did not have leave on the requisite days and my flying schedule had already been released, so my only option was to swap flights and travel to Mumbai on days off. i must have sent out at least 200 swaps and messaged colleagues to kindly accept the swap but all got rejected. 3 days before the commencement of the workshop, the last swap got rejected and there was no way i could have made it for the training. i finally surrendered and fully accepted that this was not manifesting. There was no disappointment or unpleasant feelings, just an acceptance that QVSWPP, Sree Maa Shri Ji know what's best for me, an understanding and knowingness that had come from over 4 years of experience.

2 days later, i woke up to a message from a colleague saying that she had seen my advertisement for the days off that i wanted and was happy to swap but hadn't checked if the swap was valid. i had only half an hour to check if the swap was valid and for my colleague to accept as the legality for rostering system is that all swaps will expire 24 hours before flight departure time. Unbelievably, the swap was valid and within the next couple of hours, i found myself on a flight to Mumbai to attend the Family and Systemic Constellation training.

i wondered how everything had manifested and what was my learning out of it. i had tried everything possible to get days off, but nothing manifested. i had embodied the akarmi and didn't have any expectation of the result but what surprised me was that i did not experience even a twinge of disappointment or complaint in my thoughts and inner dialogue. This was new and 2 days later everything had fallen into place. Amazing😍. This state was somewhat similar to the state of surrender i had experienced in Nov 2011 where i had uttered a prayer to Sri Sri asking him to send into my life that's best for me but this time, i did not even utter a prayer to Sree Maa. i was in total acceptance. For the first time i had an experience of true surrender where i didn't ask for anything even in the form of a prayer and operated from utmost Trust naturally🙏🙇

Little was i aware at the time that the course content of May-June 2016 Taupo Retreat would revolve around Total Surrender (sampoorna samarpan) of which i had experienced a very small taster🙏🙇

DFE, Pratyaksh pramana

i was also practicing hypnotherapy sessions in 2013/14. i had remembered Sree Maa's guidance in the Practitioner's training not to mix modalities. With one of my clients under hypnosis, a Dark Force Entity (DFE) surfaced up that was unwilling to leave. i had only dealt with entities and spirits and having a DFE surface up was a different ball game altogether. 

For 45 mins i struggled, using every tool and technique in my kitty to make it go, but nothing was working. On the contrary, i was being heralded with abuses and threats by this DFE via the client. Can't deny i felt scared and the DFE tried to magnify the fear that i was feeling. It even told me not to look at my books for scripts to release DFE which i always kept by my side during a session to refer to. It was watching me through my client's third eye. It even tried bring out my own darkness by giving me a lecture that darkness is in everyone. 

i finally threatened it back to shut up. Not knowing what to do further, i surrendered and silently shared QVSWPP with the client. Within 5 to 10 seconds, the DFE said it's leaving and to stop doing whatever i was doing. i was astounded and had a pratyaksh pramana (proof) of what had been the foremost nuance of QVSWPP, that anything lower in vibration than the mother of all energies, vibrations and frequencies, The QVSWPP, can not stay in IT's Presence. DFE of course had no chance and did not go to light but left the client to go to it's own realm. This incident was a huge turning point in the way i viewed things. Things that were bookish knowledge earlier were turning into experiences that my mind couldn't deny. What an experience and i felt supremely grateful to Sree Maa Shri Ji for gifting something superbly spectacular. Must confess felt a little stupid as well that it was less than a 10 seconds job for QVSWPP where i struggled for 45 mins. From that day on, my first session with all new hypnotherapy clients was a session of QVSWPP. Whether they liked it or not, believed it or not, this was my style of offering therapy, take it or leave it😝

The journey and the revelations that QVSWPP was weaving and the self realizations i was having were unique and remarkable. The doer had started relying a lot on QVSWPP which was a good sign as it was acting like a friend to the non-doer instead of an enemy. 

What a practice ground Sree Maa Shri Ji had provided where without being told what to say or do, i had the freedom to draw my own conclusions from my experiences🙏 and yet Sree Maa Shri Ji were always available via emails, what's app to listen to my experiences and answer my questions 🙇❗